Thanks Tinque for sharing your execripnee.I have started listening and sharing my feelings and this has taken me to my past and all the emotions and frustrations i had stuffed away in a box I have used denial as a way of dealing with my past and present and i realized how much stuff is still stuck inside and i feel scared just thinking about going back inside I feel that my life is unfolding and i feel much better knowing that my past is linked to my present so i can dig deep and uncover those places that don't feel good .I thought in the beginning i could fix this in a short while and everything would be fine but i feel now that the joy comes in uncovering one bit after another and finally aligning myself with who i really i am .I was really good at trying to fix everything so that externally everything would seem okay .I am finally learning to let go and just loving this me that is this insecure me that feels scared Reading this post reminds me that in spite of where i am at i really need to love and accept myself completely .

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